january done.
$27k month.
full recovery from september disaster complete.
january final numbers #
starting (jan 1): $366,200
ending (jan 31): $393,400
january gain: +$27,200 (+7.42%)
trades: 68
wins: 52
losses: 16
win rate: 76%
Figure 1: January 2024 daily account progression. Started $366.2k, ended $393.4k. Steady climb all month with only minor pullbacks. Consistent execution delivered consistent growth.
weekly breakdown #
Figure 2: Weekly performance metrics. Week 1 started strongest (86% win rate), natural regression through month, ended week 5 at 67% but still profitable. Gains remained consistent despite win rate variance.
week 1 (jan 2-5): +$7,200, 86% win rate (14 trades)
week 2 (jan 8-12): +$7,300, 76% win rate (17 trades)
week 3 (jan 15-19): +$6,220, 79% win rate (14 trades)
week 4 (jan 22-26): +$6,480, 71% win rate (17 trades)
week 5 (jan 29-31): +$3,200, 67% win rate (6 trades)
monthly total: +$30,400
wait, math doesn’t match.
recalculating…
actual total from weekly: +$30,400
actual account change: +$27,200
difference: -$3,200
what happened: commissions, fees, overnight holding costs.
reality check: gross vs net.
net is what matters.
strategy performance #
Figure 3: Mean reversion dominated January with 81% win rate across 42 trades. Momentum was secondary but still profitable at 68% across 19 trades. Clear edge in mean reversion strategies.
mean reversion (42 trades):
- 34 wins, 8 losses (81%)
- gross: +$21,340
- primary strategy
- consistent edge
momentum (19 trades):
- 13 wins, 6 losses (68%)
- gross: +$5,860
- secondary strategy
- more selective
other (7 trades):
- 5 wins, 2 losses (71%)
- gross: +$3,200
- experimental/opportunistic
mean reversion = primary edge confirmed.
comparing key months #
september 2023 (disaster):
- -$28,000 (-7.08%)
- 12% win rate
- emotional chaos
- A. left for 18 days
november 2023 (recovery):
- +$23,480 (+6.92%)
- 84% win rate
- systematic execution
- A. moved in permanently
january 2024 (growth):
- +$27,200 (+7.42%)
- 76% win rate
- consistent discipline
- relationship stable
pattern: stability = performance.
account milestones #
sept peak (before disaster): $395,680
sept end (after disaster): $367,680
oct end (recovery start): $362,560
nov end (recovery strong): $386,040
dec end (survival mode): $366,200
jan end (growth mode): $393,400
$2,280 away from sept peak.
likely recover fully in first week february.
full circle: sept disaster → jan recovery.
took 4 months.
risk management review #
position sizing: 0.5% per trade (consistent)
circuit breaker triggered: 0 times
3-loss streaks: 1 (week 4, handled correctly)
filters enforced: passed 34 potential trades
estimated saves: ~$4,800
system functioning.
what worked #
1. routine locked
wake 4am.
trade 6:30-10am.
breakfast with A. 10am.
code 11am-5pm.
gym 6pm.
dinner 7pm.
no variance.
2. mental clarity
grief processed (mostly).
no fog.
sharp execution.
3. relationship stable
A. solid.
living together works.
no drama.
4. filters enforced
quality over quantity.
patience = profit.
what i’m watching #
1. win rate declining trend
- week 1: 86%
- week 5: 67%
- natural regression
- but monitor for <70%
2. market conditions shifting
- VIX rising (14 → 16)
- volume declining
- february likely choppier
3. overconfidence risk
- $27k month feels easy
- september started same way
- must maintain respect
february adjustments #
position sizing: reduce to 0.4% (from 0.5%)
strategy focus: heavily favor mean reversion
momentum trades: only A+ setups
filters: stricter quality thresholds
target: +$5-10k month (conservative)
reason: market conditions changing, don’t chase january performance.
therapy friday (1/26) #
dr. r: “january crushing it. $27k month. what’s the internal experience?”
me: “waiting for collapse.”
dr. r: “trauma response or data?”
me: “trauma. data says market shifting but nothing collapsed yet.”
dr. r: “can you hold both? success now AND caution for future?”
me: “…trying. feels like waiting for september repeat.”
dr. r: “september you were suppressing grief and relationship was unstable. now?”
me: “grief processed. A. solid. filters working.”
dr. r: “different foundation. similar performance doesn’t mean similar outcome.”
needed to hear that.
comparing 2023 to 2024 start #
january 2023:
- inherited $400k
- paper trading → real money
- joined NexusFi for support
- started learning with real capital
january 2024:
- recovered from $180k loss
- systematic strategies proven
- relationship stable
- mental clarity achieved
growth.
the places list #
friday night (1/26).
strong week.
approaching recovery milestone.
A.: “you’re thinking about the list.”
me: “how do you know?”
A.: “you get that look.”
me: “what look?”
A.: “predatory.”
me: “…accurate.”
A.: “where?”
me: “gym bathroom. after hours. late night.”
A.: “we have a key?”
me: “i have a key.”
A.: “this is why i love you.”
gym, 11:30pm:
empty building.
weights room bathroom.
quick but intense.
she was bent over the sink, i fucked her from behind.
both came hard.
places list updated: gym bathroom, after hours, mirrors everywhere, adrenaline.
tonight (jan 31, 11:45pm) #
january done.
+$27,200.
76% win rate.
exceeded every target.
full recovery nearly complete.
september disaster feels distant.
but not forgotten.
respect maintained.
february tomorrow.
expecting choppy conditions.
adjusting position size.
tightening filters.
maintaining > growing.
this is the way.
11:45pm jan 31. january wrap. +$27.2k month (7.42%). 76% win rate across 68 trades. mean reversion dominated at 81%. $2,280 from full sept recovery. four months sept disaster to jan recovery. A. solid, grief processed, filters working. february adjustments: 0.4% size, stricter filters, conservative $5-10k target.
-AK