recovery accelerating.
6 days until A. moves in (nov 1).
account healing.
this week’s trading (oct 23-27) #
monday 10/23: 2 trades, 2 wins. +$640 (posted about this)
tuesday 10/24: 3 trades, 2 wins, 1 loss. +$580
wednesday 10/25: 2 trades, 2 wins. +$720
thursday 10/26: 4 trades, 3 wins, 1 loss. +$940
friday 10/27: will update
week so far (4 days): +$2,880
account progression #
oct 10 bottom: $334,780 (after $25k disaster)
oct 23: $336,200 (+$1,420 recovered)
oct 26: $339,080 (+$4,300 recovered from bottom)
still down from sept peak: -$23,040 (-6.4%)
pace improving: $1,075/day average this week vs $355/day last week
what’s working #
1. following system perfectly
every trade has proper setup.
0.25% risk maintained.
stops enforced.
filters applied.
2. A.’s boundary preventing spirals
3 losing days = 1 week off.
haven’t had 2 losing days in row yet.
prevents revenge trading.
3. mental stability
A. here every night.
sleeping 7-8 hours.
eating normal meals.
brain focused.
4. paper trading validation
test new setups on paper first.
only go live after validation.
reduces losing trades.
win rate improving #
last 2 weeks (oct 19-27):
17 trades total
13 wins, 4 losses
win rate: 76%
profit factor: 2.4
average R-multiple: 1.8
back to pre-september levels.
comparison to disaster period #
sept 24 - oct 10 (during chaos):
- 26 trades, 3 wins (12% win rate)
- -$28,000
- every rule violated
oct 19-27 (A. back, stable):
- 17 trades, 13 wins (76% win rate)
- +$4,300
- every rule followed
difference: relationship stable = trading stable
strategy breakdown #
mean reversion (7 trades):
- 5 wins, 2 losses (71%)
- net: +$1,820
momentum (8 trades):
- 7 wins, 1 loss (88%)
- net: +$2,140
crypto (2 trades):
- 1 win, 1 loss (50%)
- net: +$340
momentum crushing it.
mean reversion solid.
crypto: small sample, staying cautious.
recovery timeline #
at current pace ($1,075/day):
$23,040 remaining loss / $1,075 per day = 21 trading days
about 4-5 weeks to full recovery.
optimistic scenario: hit $5k+ week = 4-5 weeks total
realistic scenario: steady $3k weeks = 6-8 weeks total
conservative scenario: $2k weeks = 10-12 weeks total
target: fully recovered by christmas.
what A. said yesterday #
A.: “account looking better.”
me: “yeah. +$4,300 from bottom. $23k still to go.”
A.: “you’re following the rules.”
me: “your rules. 3 losses = week off. haven’t needed it but it’s there.”
A.: “that’s the point. knowing the circuit breaker exists prevents you from needing it.”
she’s right.
6 days until move-in #
november 1 approaching fast.
A.’s apartment:
- 100% packed (18 boxes total)
- lease termination signed
- final walkthrough oct 31
- keys returned nov 1 morning
my apartment:
- her space ready
- closet cleared
- dresser cleared
- bathroom reorganized
- mentally: getting there
the fear check #
still scared? yeah.
what about? fucking it up.
how? panicking when she’s here permanently. reverting to old patterns.
managing it? telling her when scared. therapy 2x/week. communication.
dr. r’s verdict: “fear is normal. acting on fear is the problem. you’re doing the work.”
this weekend (oct 28-29) #
saturday: help A. with final packing. move boxes to my place.
sunday: A.’s last night at her apartment. sleep there with her.
monday oct 30: her final day at old place.
tuesday oct 31: move remaining stuff.
wednesday nov 1: officially living together.
trading plan next week #
oct 30-31: light trading. focus on move logistics.
nov 1: probably no trading. moving day.
nov 2+: resume normal schedule. A. living here. new routine.
risk level: staying at 0.25% through move. ramp to 0.5% mid-november if stable.
tonight #
she’s here.
18 boxes in my living room already.
her life moving into mine.
6 days away.
ready.
mostly.
working on it.
3:28am thursday. trading recovery accelerating. +$4,300 from bottom. 6 days until A. moves in. 18 boxes already here. apartment transforming. ready for this.
-AK