first week 2024 done.
crushed it.
momentum back.
week 1 trades (jan 2-5) #
tuesday 1/2: 3 trades, 3 wins. +$1,940
wednesday 1/3: 4 trades, 3 wins. +$1,680
thursday 1/4: 3 trades, 3 wins. +$2,120
friday 1/5: 4 trades, 3 wins. +$1,460
week total: +$7,200
account status #
dec 31 (2023): $366,200
jan 5 (week 1): $373,400
january progress: +$7,200 (+1.97%)
best first week since november.
win rate recovered #
week 1 january: 14 trades, 12 wins (86%)
december average: 58%
difference: 28% improvement.
why:
mental clarity (anniversary processed).
normal market conditions (holidays over).
quality setups (volume back).
sharp execution (no grief fog).
strategy breakdown #
mean reversion (10 trades):
- 9 wins, 1 loss (90%)
- net: +$5,480
- crushing it
momentum (4 trades):
- 3 wins, 1 loss (75%)
- net: +$1,720
- back in play
added momentum back thursday.
felt ready.
sharp focus.
working.
comparing to december #
december week 1: +$400, 56% win rate, barely functional
january week 1: +$7,200, 86% win rate, sharp execution
18x better performance.
not because strategies changed.
because mental state changed.
grief fog lifted = performance returned.
therapy friday (1/5) #
dr. r: “first week trading 2024. how’d it go?”
me: “+$7,200. 86% win rate. felt normal.”
dr. r: “normal how?”
me: “sharp focus. no fog. no memories hitting mid-trade. just… trading.”
dr. r: “the anniversary processing worked.”
me: “yeah. grief is still there. but it’s background now. not foreground.”
dr. r: “that’s integration. what we worked toward all december.”
me: “so it doesn’t get easier. just… different?”
dr. r: “exactly. you’ll have hard days. but not hard months.”
makes sense.
living with A. - restaurant experiment #
wednesday night:
A.: “you promised to try new restaurants.”
me: “i said i’d consider it.”
A.: “close enough. we’re going to that sushi place tomorrow.”
me: “i don’t like sushi.”
A.: “you’ve never tried sushi.”
me: “exactly. haven’t tried it, as a result don’t like it.”
A.: “that’s not how logic works.”
thursday night - sushi place:
verdict: actually good.
still prefer my regular 4 places.
but will go back if she wants.
compromise.
the places list (fresh year addition) #
friday night.
good trading week.
A. in good mood.
me: “list?”
A.: “fresh year, fresh place. where?”
me: “rooftop. downtown building. city lights. cold january night.”
A.: “you love the cold.”
me: “grounds me.”
places list updated: downtown rooftop, january night, city lights, cold air, fresh year.
january target on track #
weekly target: +$1,250/week (for $5k month)
week 1 result: +$7,200
beat target: 5.76x
if maintain: +$28k month.
realistic expectation: +$8-12k month (this week was standout).
risk management #
still 0.5% risk per trade.
3-loss circuit breaker: haven’t triggered.
filters active:
passed 8 setups this week.
estimated saves: ~$1,200.
patience maintained.
what’s working #
1. mental clarity
anniversary processed = no fog.
2. routine stability
wake 4am → trade → breakfast with A. → code → gym → dinner.
locked in.
3. strategy execution
mean reversion primary.
momentum secondary.
both working.
4. A’s support
she doesn’t need explanations.
just there.
5. market conditions
normal volume.
clean setups.
proper price action.
looking ahead #
week 2 (jan 8-12):
maintain consistency.
don’t get overconfident.
keep executing system.
monthly goal:
+$8-12k realistic.
86% win rate probably won’t hold.
75%+ target.
psychological focus:
stay patient.
no revenge trading.
circuit breaker ready if needed.
trust process.
tonight #
first week 2024 crushed.
+$7,200.
86% win rate.
this is what trading looks like without grief fog.
sharp.
focused.
systematic.
2:42am sunday. first week january. +$7,200. 86% win rate. momentum back. mental clarity after anniversary. A. made me try sushi (was okay). crushing targets.
-AK