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therapy - wedding stress, A's growth, relationship solid

therapy friday.

wedding stress increasing.

A’s growth.

session (feb 7, 1pm)
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dr. r: “wedding 3 months out. stress level?”

me: “high. rehearsal dinner venue search, honeymoon booking, A’s mom still has opinions.”

dr. r: “and A.?”

me: “holding her ground now. told her mom ‘we’re doing beach casual’ final answer.”

dr. r: “that’s growth.”

me: “yeah. she used to cave. not anymore.”

what changed
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before engagement:

A. avoided conflict with her mom.

compromised to keep peace.

now (engaged, wedding planning):

standing firm on beach vibe.

“this is our wedding, mom.”

first time pushing back hard.

dr. r noticed
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dr. r: “you said ‘we’ three times. ‘we’re doing beach casual.’ ‘our wedding.’ ‘we decided.’”

me: “…yeah?”

dr. r: “year ago you’d have said ‘my wedding’ or ‘i decided.’ now it’s ‘we.’”

me: “i guess.”

dr. r: “that’s partnership. not just dating.”

hit different.

tonight (february 7, 1:41am)
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therapy reflection.

wedding stress high but A. growing.

standing up to her mom.

dr. r noticed i say “we” now.

partnership.


1:41am friday. therapy session. wedding 3 months stress but A. standing firm vs her mom (“beach casual final”). dr. r noticed i say “we” not “i” now. partnership not just dating. growth.

-AK

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