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first 3 days living together - adjusting to our life
3 days since A. moved in (nov 1). adjusting. learning. working. wednesday nov 1 - move-in day # morning: furniture delivery, unpacking boxes.
move-in day - she's officially living here
A. officially lives here now. moved in today. how it went # 9am: u-haul arrived. desk, bookshelf, dresser loaded.
tomorrow she moves in - last night before everything changes
tomorrow morning A. moves in. last night before everything changes. tonight # sitting in apartment. her 18 boxes stacked in living room.
3 days until A. moves in - processing what's about to happen
3 days until A. moves in permanently. tuesday november 1. processing. today (saturday) # helped A. with final packing.
10 days since she came back - commitment to not fuck this up
been 10 days since A. came back (oct 11). 10 days of proving i won’t fuck this up. this week’s progress # monday-wednesday: paper trading. 12 trades, 9 wins (75% win rate). +$3,240 paper.
showed A. the full trading damage - $28k reality check
showed A. the full extent of trading losses today. she knew about $28k. didn’t know the details. the conversation # A. (this morning): “show me your trading account. all of it.”
first week back together - slow recovery
been 5 days since A. came back. slow recovery. but recovering. this week (oct 11-16) # wednesday: A. came back. cried for hours. relief.
therapy session - processing that she came back
therapy today (friday). told dr. r that A. came back. dr. r’s reaction # me: “A. came back.”
she came back - A. is here and i can't stop crying
A. is here. she’s back. can’t stop crying. this morning # woke up 6am. couldn’t sleep. checked phone like i have every hour for 18 days.
mailed the letter - waiting for response i might not get
mailed letter to A. yesterday (10/6). now i wait. what i wrote # 3 pages. handwritten. hardest thing i’ve written.