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showed A. the full trading damage - $28k reality check
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showed A. the full extent of trading losses today.
she knew about $28k.
didn’t know the details.
the conversation # A. (this morning): “show me your trading account. all of it.”
first week back together - slow recovery
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been 5 days since A. came back.
slow recovery.
but recovering.
this week (oct 11-16) # wednesday: A. came back. cried for hours. relief.
therapy session - processing that she came back
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therapy today (friday).
told dr. r that A. came back.
dr. r’s reaction # me: “A. came back.”
she came back - A. is here and i can't stop crying
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A. is here.
she’s back.
can’t stop crying.
this morning # woke up 6am. couldn’t sleep.
checked phone like i have every hour for 18 days.
mailed the letter - waiting for response i might not get
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mailed letter to A. yesterday (10/6).
now i wait.
what i wrote # 3 pages. handwritten.
hardest thing i’ve written.
went to A's place - she didn't answer the door
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went to her place saturday (9/30).
she didn’t answer the door.
what happened # drove to her apartment. 2pm.
fight with A - she's gone and i fucked everything up
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A. hasn’t been here since sunday.
5 days without her.
i fucked up.
what happened (sunday 9/24) # she came over sunday morning.
A wants to move in - therapy session reality check
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therapy session yesterday (9/22).
talked about A. wanting to move in.
the situation # timeline:
june 13: met at coffee shop