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9 months living together - routine locked, marriage thoughts persistent
9 months living with A. november 1 to august 10. routine completely locked. daily pattern (weekdays) # 10am: wake up together.
22 - best birthday wakeup ever, might marry this girl
woke up at 11am. hands tied to headboard. A. between my legs going down on me. best fucking birthday ever. how it started # didn’t know she tied me up.
birthday approaching - 21 to 22, different year from last
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july 4 coming up. turn 22. different from last year. last year (july 4, 2023) # turned 21.
seven months living together - routine locked, works perfectly
living with A. 7 months now. routine completely locked. works perfectly. the daily schedule # 10:00am: wake up
mall dressing rooms - how many before getting caught (almost found out at macys)
mall during the day is dead. ghost town. A. made it into a game. the discovery (2 weeks ago) # saturday afternoon.
six months with A. - therapy breakthrough about attachment
met A. june 13, 2023. today may 9, 2024. 11 months together. 6 months living together (nov 1). therapy session revealed something. therapy thursday (5/9) # dr. r: “almost a year with A. how’s it feel?”
five months living together - this actually works
moved in november 1. today april 23. 5.5 months living together. works. what therapy revealed (tuesday 4/23) # dr. r: “almost 6 months living together. how’s it going?”
valentine's day - trading and living with someone who gets it
valentine’s day. first one living with someone. first one that didn’t feel forced. morning (6:30am) # woke up 4am as usual.
christmas eve weekend - barely present, just surviving
christmas eve tomorrow. barely present. just surviving. christmas week trading (dec 18-22) # light trading all week. results:
therapy - processing anniversary dread and trading through grief
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therapy today (thursday 12/7). processing anniversary dread. dr. r asked hard questions. the session # dr. r: “dec 31 is 24 days away. how are you feeling?”