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therapy session - processing that she came back
therapy today (friday). told dr. r that A. came back. dr. r’s reaction # me: “A. came back.”
she came back - A. is here and i can't stop crying
A. is here. she’s back. can’t stop crying. this morning # woke up 6am. couldn’t sleep. checked phone like i have every hour for 18 days.
lost $15k today - fucking desperate for her back
lost $15k today. single worst trading day since march. can’t do this without her. what happened # woke up: checked phone. no response from A. to the letter.
mailed the letter - waiting for response i might not get
mailed letter to A. yesterday (10/6). now i wait. what i wrote # 3 pages. handwritten. hardest thing i’ve written.
therapy session - processing losing A and the trading collapse
therapy session tuesday and thursday this week. processing losing A. processing trading collapse. tuesday session (10/3) # dr. r: “you went to her place. she didn’t answer.”
went to A's place - she didn't answer the door
went to her place saturday (9/30). she didn’t answer the door. what happened # drove to her apartment. 2pm.
fight with A - she's gone and i fucked everything up
A. hasn’t been here since sunday. 5 days without her. i fucked up. what happened (sunday 9/24) # she came over sunday morning.
A wants to move in - therapy session reality check
therapy session yesterday (9/22). talked about A. wanting to move in. the situation # timeline: june 13: met at coffee shop
three months with A - first time this feels right
been with A. for 3 months now. longest relationship since parents died. how we met # june 13. coffee shop in la jolla.
A. watched me trade - she gets it now
A. came over monday morning. sat on couch behind my desk for 2 hours. watched me trade. how it went # 9:00am: she showed up with coffee for both of us.